Today I’ve sat reflecting on what I want for this New Year. I don’t really do resolutions, but every fresh new year I like to basically reset my mind/body/spirit. I like to create goals for what I want the year to look like. I don’t really make resolutions, but more so work towards a goal of bettering myself.
This year was good but hard. We had many good things happen and many hard things. I feel like I’ve been in a constant state of exhaustion this entire year since I get most of my work done at night time and then I get up early the next morning with the kids. Rhett has been along trend like his brothers and sister and has been a terrible sleeper. Probably the worst yet. He sleeps in my arms all night long and eats very frequently. Some nights he stays latched all night long. This is completely on me as I’ve been living in a state of exhaustion, so I’ve been too tired to do anything about it or sleep train him. But guys, it needs to happen and in fact, it is one of my goals for this new year to have Rhetty and Brinley sleep in their own beds, all night long.
I remember in Brinleys first two years of life I was equally just as tired and looking back, I can see how depressed I was. My life was a mess and I don’t want that for this year.
Rhett is 10.5 months old and although he is very young still, I’ve been on the waitlist to get a breast reduction since May 2018. Getting a breast reduction will be life changing for me as I currently go to Chiro twice a week for back pain. Weaning Rhett earlier than later will mean I can get the surgery sooner and ultimately, be way happier. I can start working out ( which isn’t even an option right now as the back pain is pretty terrible ) and it frees me up to basically do WAY MORE. So this is another big goal of mine – wean Rhett by hopefully 13 months old. I didn’t wean Cai or Brinley until 20+ months, so this one will probably be hard on me mentally.. but hey, will be worth it!
Next up – I want to chat about my spiritual side of things. Most of you know by now that I’m a Christian, but due to the lack of sleep, church sometimes gets tossed to the side. I would way rather stay home on weekends than pour into my faith. I know, I know.. lots of you have said that it’s just the time of my life that I’m in, with small kids and two that don’t sleep well.. but It’s something that has been bugging me deeply. My faith Is really important to me. Yes, it’s true you don’t need to go to church to have a relationship with Jesus. But it isn’t about that. Church for me is more about being accountable to myself and my faith. I often feel spoken to from sermons or worship, so to not have church as a consistent weekly event in my life has been hurting my faith. So this is another big goal for me in 2019. Push myself to go every single week. Not just sporadically.
I also wanted to talk about my blog and social media goals for this year. I know these types of goals don’t apply to most of you, but I like to be able put these kinds of things “out there” so at the end of 2019 I can look back to see how far I’ve come.
Ideally, I would like to triple my blog traffic from what it is at right now, I would also like to reach 50,000 Followers on Instagram by the end of 2019 and hit 5 Million monthly viewers on Pinterest. Here are some photos for where my Pinterest + Instagram accounts are at now. These pictures are mostly for me so I can look back and see. Keep in mind, this social media / blog gig is how I pay the bills, so I’m not trying to triple my traffic for vain reasons. Promise. To an average person, numbers are just numbers.. but for me, it matters because if I don’t have X amount of followers or X amount of people visiting my blog, it could mean that a brand will decline me and go with another influencer / blogger.
I kind of have big goals for my blog and social media because that’s just who I am – I push myself hard. I think when you want something bad enough, you push hard for it.
Next, I really want to make monthly appointments to see a counsellor for trauma I’ve had in my life. If you are a reader here, you’ll know some of the things I’ve gone through in the past and sadly, it still creeps into my daily life. My interactions, thoughts and how I view myself.
Ultimately, this year I would like to work hard on improving those broken areas of myself. The last ten years I haven’t made it a priority because counsellors are expensive and honestly, you can get by with pushing those parts of yourself down. But I’d like to stop pushing it down. I’m ready to move on.
Lastly, I’d like to reach Gold with Young Living. I’m not sure how that will look as I hate the thought of selling a product. I refuse to do it. I refuse to push orders on people. I honestly love my oils so dang much and use them constantly. So for all of 2018, I haven’t really “done the business” as I don’t know how to do it without seeming salesy. You hear me? But I want to somehow figure it out. I’m still sitting at Silver, which means roughly 1500 – 2500/month and I’m grateful for it every single month. But I feel like this year is my year to grow in that department. I just don’t know how yet.
See how I haven’t talked about my weight? I honestly feel content with my body right now. Yes it’s saggy and out of shape.. but content. I’m proud of everything it has done for me and carried me through. Also I kind of feel like before I really dive into my outer self, I need to dive into my inside self AKA, counselling.
How do you want to grow this year? What area of your life do you want to succeed in or tone down?
I’d love to hear from you in the comments and how I can help or pray for you!