You’re probably all like ‘hmmmm, reflections of 2018? Isn’t that a New Years Resolution thing?!’, you’re probably right, but I was chatting to my mom tonight after we got home from the Pumpkin Patch and honestly, this year has been insane. Insane from pushing out a baby before I was ready and getting rushed to the NICU, to bringing him home and having life literally not slow down for one second. Between caring for a very needy baby ( and three other kiddos ), to moving, to work, to everythannnnnng. You hear me?
So I was casually chatting with my mom tonight and after our chat I realized that I literally never give myself credit. Looking back over the last eight months I’m exhausted thinking about it all. Yet here I am. I mean, you have to go through it. But I always look forward, not backwards and I never really sit and think why I might be reacting a way or exhausted.. well, I’m FLIPPING exhausted because of 2018. There’s been a ton of good and a ton of bad. But I feel like we need the bad to shape us into better humans, am I right?
So, I’m pretty sure this is why God doesn’t let you see into the future and tells you to focus on today and not tomorrow. Because if I could have seen in the future, I would have clocked out ten years ago. -ha!
People always ask you that age-old question “How are you doing?” and you always go “I’m doing great”… but are you really? I think it’s so important to open up to others around you.. but I always think and question if they really want the real answer.
I mean, I’m so thankful for my family of six. I couldn’t be more grateful. I truly feel like this was the biggest blessing in disguise.. and I’m grateful that we don’t have a ton as I think it’s shaping us to be more considerate, kind and loving people. But I’m still exhausted and I think that once Rhett hits one I can really start focusing more on gaining some of that lost energy and mental space back.
PS. I made those two little creatures. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT.
So, as much as I want to sit here and say I’m going to try to spend more time reflecting. I probably wont, it just isn’t my jam. I am just a go go go kinda girl and then when crap hits the fan or I burn out I wonder why.
Anyone else like this?
Anywhoooo, that’s just a little sliver of what’s going on in my brain tonight. I don’t even know if that makes sense. I really feel like I can’t even figure out myself half the time.
But here are some cute photos from our pumpkin patch fun today to make up for my lack of sense.