Happy Monday Friends!
Who had the most beautiful Monday?? It was super warm and clear skies – it almost feels like Spring is here!
Today I wanted to touch on Self Love. The last year I’ve worked really hard on accepting my body where I’m at. I feel like it’s not even about what size or weight you are, because when I was at my skinniest as a 20 year old, I hated myself. I wanted to change so much. I was working out twice a day, barely eating and thought I was fat.. looking back it must of been body dysmorphia!
Now as a 30 something mom of four and being a size 12, I’ve really worked to love myself. Every roll and stretch mark. Loving yourself doesn’t mean forgoing your health though, It can mean making healthier choices, maybe not eating past 7 or going for that walk
I used to think that if I wasn’t my goal weight and under a size 8, I wasn’t healthy and I couldn’t possibly love myself. Honestly, it’s a terrible way to live.
But since giving birth to five babies and being a mother of four living.. it’s changed the way I think about myself. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still self conscious and wish I could lose a bit, BUT, I started to think about my daughter Brinley. I started to imagine her as a teenager, picking apart her body that I helped create. It hurt me. It hurt me to see her do as I have and so many of us have. So over the last few years I’ve changed my mentality.
Although if I’m being 100% honest with you, the last few weeks have been hard. I’ve been content with my size. Of course I’d like to lose 10-15, but content. The last few weeks I’ve been weaning Rhett from breastfeeding as I’m preparing for a big surgery in May and I’ve gained 10 pounds overnight. All my jeans fit extremely snug. I’m bloated, my skin has been breaking out and just like that.. I’m back to square one.
I haven’t been feeling as much love for myself lately and I hate living like this.
It is always a journey. I feel like self love takes a lot. It is never over. It is always evolving and changing.
Do you struggle with Self Love? Not sure if I need to even ask this question as we all struggle. Just in different forms.
I also wanted to highlight a sweet Australian brand [ Beau Hudson ]
They make the most stylish clothes for the entire family. Everything you see in these photos is from Beau Hudson except for my pants and shirt!
I’d love to hear your thoughts on self love below! Thank you for stopping in today – have an amazing week!